mom

     There once was a mother who cared more about her daughters teeth being brushed, face bring washed and her grades being good. Yes, that is my mother. Stalks me on face book and twitter…the only thing I have that she doesn’t know about is this; my one space in the world where I can say whatever I want without her breathing down my neck. Everyone needs space and I do not think she understands that at all. She cares more about my physical appearance health, than my actual physical health, and mental health. I could cut my arms and almost die and she would not know, if she did she would not investigate why or seek help. She would most likely be mad or scold me and watch me and nag me more.

     My dad did not even believe me when I told him that she cried when we bought a homecoming dress, thus why I bought this years without her. That and she, makes me dress more conservative than a nun and I already dress modestly. I rarely show skin and I always wear a size or two larger than I am, especially at school. So my point is she needs to leave me alone and let me live my life and have a life. Or I promise I will not come home after high school.

guys who don't get it

There is this guy…

I know that sounds like I’m starting a romantic comedy but it is soooo not

The first time I can remember him in my acquaintance I see my group of friends hanging out and he is calling me a freshmen and semi out casting me. Not a bright note…

Then I remember me being single and being loose friends with this person. Then I remember me saying no to the Holy Grail (justly named because you think he is amazing until you see the hollow empty inside) then next year I said yes to the guy, to shut him up cuz he kept asking. Bad idea…

Then two weeks later its null and I thought that was the end of it with a little bit of awkwardness. But no then he joins choir so I always have a class with him. The subject comes up a lot…

Then I say yes the Holy Grail guy and become friends with this guy. all is good except I notice that I get attention from this guy, then Holy Grail guy tells me that all the while this guy still likes me and that he dated me anyway. Oh they are neighbors and good friends ….yay…ugh

Holy Grail dumps me even though it should be other way around

So this past summer this guy and I nicely text, and we go to see one movie as friends…Apparently not…

Later on he asks me out and I say no, and to homecoming and I say no again…not getting the picture

This past month I did some late night teasing texts just kidding around and then days later he bursts out that he passionately loves me and lists all like 7paged text of all the reasons why.And even after I say no, he still posts on face book “So worried about her that i can't sleep, i'ma wait til she wakes up saying im ok...” and others like that

So what I’m opening up is that I do not want to hurt him, I just hope that he will get over me. Cuz I can’t take it anymore knowing that the guys who spend all of their time thinking of me are not the ones I want doing that.